JULY 29th

My party. It rocked ass! I loved it. My friends were there, and I got some amazing presents. Jessica Guzman ordered me a cherry wood, acoustic guitar for my 15th and 16th birthdays! I was in shock. Not only that, but my Daddy bought me a purple electric guitar! EEH! I am so in <3 with it!

The best present of all, though, was 'Puddles'. And it's a secret so, fuck off and don't ask questions about it!

My mother ruined it. She will burn in hell for what she did to me at my party. Beth and Jessica can say the same about her. Sometimes I wish I had a decent mother.

I'm sorry that you were frightened, Eric. I was really embarrassed. I'm just... really sorry.


JULY 30th

My actual birthday. I woke up with Beth and Jess to make them breakfast. Pancakes. We waited for them to be picked up and shortly after that, I got a ride to Eric's house. We watched movies all day! "they" is as scary as I'll get out. And "it" isn't the happiest movie either. Thank you for bearing with me. Cowboy Bebop is the shit! Julia is sexy. Spike is *orgasms*.... sP!kE. <3 him

Both of him.

Eric and I had dinner with his family. And Eric is NOT cutting his hair, bitch!

We then walked to Nick's house to play Canasta and Scrabble. I had to leave before the game was finished, but it's all good. I was so happy to spend my birthday with the people I care most about in this world.

I hope Mrs. Weber is okay. She deserves nothing less than perfect for everything she does. If I were Nick, and Eric were gay... Life would be amazingly sweet.

I came home and almost had a nervous breakdown... but I watched The Phantom of the Opera instead. Good singers.


JULY 31st

Woke up... Went to church... Got dropped off at Starbucks... Got online, had a really bad anxiety attack. Long story. I think I need to go to the doctors soon. *worries*

I love Eric. I know I wouldn't accept myself if I were him, but he does. And that's what matters. Sometimes, I just want to have him hold me and stare at the clock... counting all of the seconds passing by that I'm truly happy.

*kisses*

-josie